Wisdom Teeth

My little baby girl had her wisdom teeth removed today.  She actually was pretty lucky; in that she didn't have but 3 teeth that had to be removed and only had one on the bottom. The bottom teeth are the ones that usually swell and cause alot of pain. It has been nice having her hang out in my office with me. Of course, she non- stopped jabbered about random things before the pain meds finally kicked in. I learned a lot about our very private Emma.
The memory of today will be one that I will cherish when she flys from the nest. This summmer I plan to grab each precious moment that I get with my baby girl,  Emma!
For now I am off to cuddle by sweet baby as she recovers!

Smile

I have learned that if you just smile even though your heart is breaking, you just might get through your heartache. You also don't get the runny & stuffy nose and the ugle swollen face you get from crying!  It feels so much better to smile! I am actually thinking that I will survive and be sucessful at finding a new chapter in my life. Don't get me wrong, I have loved being a Mom but I am thinking that maybe there is something else out there that I will enjoy doing just as much as being a Mom. It might even be fun trying new things!!!

Today will be a good day!

Today is my last day to have my sweet Rachel home with me. I have been preparing  her for this day for 22 years. I know that I have given her wise advice that she has taken to heart and  she is prepared to spread her wings to  fly from the nest. However, along the way I forgot to prepare myself. I don't know what I had been thinking perhaps that  she would go to college then come back home to me?  I never thought that if your child was to do great things that they would have to leave the nest to accomplish those things. I guess I'm a little more simple minded then I thought.
It's so strange how you can feel all these emotions at the same time. Joy to see the wonderful, amazing person your child has become, great sadness to see her leave, fear that you will never be as close as you were and that you will never be as important to her as you once were and useless because you are no longer needed in this special person life anymore.
Today,  in the spirit of one of my  favorite characters, Scarlett O'Hara;  I vow I will think about this another day but not today.!